Coming back to my centre

While I found myself in a complete whirlwind of confusion regarding my life purpose, I have decided to first align myself again with my centre. What this means is that I will put what matters first. The things I don't do because "I don't have time" will now be done. There are a few aspects to this decision and I will elaborate on each point briefly.

1. Martha Beck says in "Steering by starlight", "Living space is a powerful metaphor for your life. Whether you know it or not, you can't change your life without changing your home, and vice versa." And, slowly but surely, I am starting to make my house a home. It's small things here and there, but I want my home to be magical. I want people to see my personality and my values and my passions when they walk in. By doing this simple task I have already discovered what is really important to me. Needless to say I am surrounded by images of dolphins :) I also have my beautiful sanctuary set up where I can go and be with God and with myself every morning. I think I may just include a photo to show you :)

2. I have always tried to lose weight and eat healthily and have gone on many quests to become fit - I always failed. I hate being fat (I am not obese or anything, but I have always been between 10 and 20kg overweight). I hate going to Mozambique and being the fattest person on the boat. I hate being so tired in the swells that I can barely swim back to the boat again. I want to be strong and fit and healthy. So I joined the gym today. I am going to put everything in this time. No holding back. I refuse to stay the same. I am going to get thin for the first time in my life and I will swim faster and deeper than anyone else on that boat next time. I am even taking up yoga classes. This is a complete overhaul folks. I would put my "before" pic up here for the world to see, but frankly, I am just too embarrassed.

3. The main area of focus is a spiritual one. I need to get back to my core, the real me, my spirit. I have lost an element of my faith along my path and I just feel like I need to connect again before I can even begin to start finding myself.

So there it is. Coming back to centre.

PS: Today I weigh 77kg. Watch this space.